Today was one of those days. I haven't had one since our first step on this homeschooling journey. One child was amazing, filling my heart with joy, really "getting" homeschool and working hard to complete his assignments. It could be because of his maturity and his ability to see the light at the end of the school tunnel. On the other hand, one was flustered, impatient and for lack of a better term bored. So after little motivation and much frustration I ended our day. At the same time working from home and teaching I start feeling the pressures of doing good, succeeding and having goals that feel unreachable and at one point feeling like the youngest. Then, I was reminded of Matthew 6:33 - 34 (Amplified Bible)
33But seek ([z]aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness ([aa]His way of doing and being right), and then all these things [ab]taken together will be given you besides.
34So do not worry or be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties of its own. Sufficient for each day is its own trouble.
Whew,
just released the valve off that pressure cooker. Why do we put
ourselves in one to begin with anyway? As a wife, a mom, a teacher and
a business owner the pressures, oh how they build and build and start
to feel like a point of no return. Do you ever feel this way? The
answer, let go! Trust me, I have had to let go daily, and
sometimes often more than once in a day to seek Him first. It is then,
when I start to feel refreshed, controlled and calm. The news flash
hits me plain as day. HE has everything in control, I just have to let
him! His goals will be met and I will feel content and confident if I seek Him first.
What a lesson for me to swallow today, remembering that this is my special time and my only opportunity at raising my children to be God LOVING, fearing and bold soldiers for Him.
What an awesome responsibility.

